its not an excuse.
no it isn't.

but i really do hate you at the moment.
i really do.
i hate it when you pretend that everyone thinks about you.
when you think you're all so important.
i hate it when you make the people i care about cry.
when you make the people i love cry.
when you leave them helpless and there is nothing i can do to help them.
and it makes me helpless in return.

i hate it when you're not true.
but you pretend you are.
and your feelings arent even real in the first place.
when you use that act of yours to get what you want.
you just want what others want.
and you get it.
and you throw it away.
leaving those who needed it empty and broken hearted.


gosh.
i hate you.
really.